National Moron Week?

Is there a new week long holiday I'm not aware of? Because this past week SUCKS. Nothing but morons texting..... I'm sorry but when I have info on my ad that states "over white and 40 only," I mean it. It does not mean "ooo, if I text on a tuesday maybe she'll be so desperate that she wont care I'm 26 and Indian." I care. I would literally rather shoot myself in the face. Had 2 more guys threaten me this past week "I'm too young? You wont see me? Whaaa... I'm writing you a bad review!" This is partly why I can't stand TER and do not want reviews on there, men use it as a scare tactic and I don't like it.

So anyway! I've got 2 cars at the lot for sale.... that's good but will take time to sell and get my profit from it. I had to spend some money on parts and stuff, plus the actual cars.....I'm about $500 away from broke BUT!!!!!!!! Wait for it.......................wait.................. I just put a deposit down on a new German Shepherd puppy in the Czech Republic *bounces up and down* Now, I wont get her for months....(which is good because she is a lot of money, gives me time to get her) At first, I was considering keeping her overseas til August for training but now I'm reconsidering that.... It'll cost more. Maybe May? So that is exciting, it's a small, small piece of the puzzle to my future, the problem with a puppy is just because she's a very expensive, very well bred puppy does NOT mean she will grow up to be worth breeding... I tried to find a bitch that was 8-12 months old but I couldn't find the bloodlines I wanted in one that old and you have to be careful, I don't have my European connect anymore which means I'm searching blind... Europeans will often sell their least worthy dog and I don't want that. Though I want to profit from this (2 year waiting game) I want to do it right.

Because well, no one seems to get it... I am not interested in finding some guy to take care of me.... I want my own money. Not to mention..... out of all the "really wealthy" guys I've met, I have yet to meet one I'd want a damn thing from. I want to quit escorting and get a normal life. I need to make my own money, it makes me proud.... I just need to be in a profession I can be proud of and do for years to come. Escorting is an empty future, hell, some guys probably already consider me old.... and I can't work a normal job.

Everyone really believes I have guys shoveling money at me and I don't because very few care about me, it's cool I'm not whining, just stating a fact.. Although.......... I did finally, after all this time meet a client (a friend now) who is very intelligent and seems to care, he actually DID for me first and waited for me to give back... I have so many guys text wanting a chance, but expect me to walk the first mile "proving myself" to them and I wont do it. I know the type of person I am, and this type of loyalty I have inside of me isn't meant to be passed around and pissed on. I'm not saying I'm looking for a relationship but jesus... if I was, I'm not going to take the time to prove myself to a potential jerk. Because I have just been through TOO much to "take a chance" without you proving your worth it and the right guy will understand that. Basically, a guy needs to walk the first mile and I will run to catch up... but I wont walk that first mile alone to try and prove something to you, screw that. I don't want to hear "well... I was burned once before" Hunny, I've been burned hundreds of times....Go through that then tell me. I'm done proving, I will sit alone for the rest of my life if I have to. Many guys are willing to talk and spit false promise through their teeth (no girl who has lost it all wants to hear that crap because it's all lies) Do you know what you call a guy talking about getting me a 2018 Lexus is? A PREDATOR. First off, I'm not a douchebag... I don't want or care about a 2018 car for God's sake, second... How stupid do you think I am? Am I supposed to say "Omg! Your getting me a car!! *Jumps into bed with guy for free*" Literally, that is what these assholes expect. OR they just talk and talk... hoping I will keep talking to them. If I talk to a guy through text for a few hours.... to me? That is a privilege, that's me saying "I recognize your a human being and not a wallet" because no escort is going to talk past money. So when a guy texts and texts... I expect a little bit of credit. I can be a helluva good person.... but don't expect me to do for you for nothing, please. I have many guys want to take me out to dinner and not pay me. No. Please explain to me why I should do that? I'm really trying to figure out the logic... I don't know this guy, what has he done for me? Guys are so dumb, everyone thinks some guy should have scooped me up because I'm pretty...you'd think that. But no one wants to go that mile, it's too much to ask, which means they're not worth it.

Some guys are what I call publicity whores, they get off by being seen with a pretty girl in public. Free time and dinner is a privilege reserved for the few (and I mean 2 people) that I have met that I happen to like and respect because they have done something for me. I think it's wrong to expect me to drop my life and go out with someone for free, their argument is always "well you get a free meal out of it" No, that's bullshit. It's still companionship. Some also say "it's so I can get to know you and see if I want to visit with you" then pay. Guys love saying they pay for time and companionship, not the act itself but when it comes time to do that... no one wants to, it should be given freely. Please explain why I should go out to dinner, spend 1-2 hours with a strange guy for nothing. How dare you. This is a classic case of "kindness taken as weakness." I've been told too many times that I'm too nice and it will never get me anywhere.... I think sometimes it's true when I see or hear of some tactless junkie getting guys to give her a car, credit card, paid rent... No one freaking pays my rent! But, at the same time.... those girls are aggressive, demanding, rude, classless and generally have kids. Like I have said before a struggling daughter with her disabled mother isn't as interesting as a drug addict with a baby... it's a fact.

I'm a little worried.... I shouldn't say this but, escorting took a dive this past week.... 2 clients. That's bad, I have a new $1200 per month bill on top of all my other bills, plus I'm buying cars....plus my several thousand dollar puppy... it's not looking good. My "profit margin" for thse 2 cars is 900-1200 per car which is great except the part where $1200 has to go to my mechanic. I have to get him his license so he can start driving cars and running them through inspection... my Mom is just too worn out and I don't drive. Really not good.... it has to pick up, weekends are never good and mondays I'm at the auction, though I probably wont be this week unless I sell a car over the weekend, pray.... that is what I need...to sell a car and get another one, keep the ball rolling. My mechanic is costing me a fortune, that is the $1200 extra bill. Pray for me... I'm genuinely worried. And below.... is my future puppy, who is counting on me to make her payments, because If I fail, there is no refund. But she is important to my plan. So lets not let her down.......maaaah puuppppppyyyyyyyyyyyy! *bouncy!!!* Pray Tessa sells her cars and gets other "work." Important.