Hope

So....after all this time, after the years of struggling...part of the struggle may be over (god willing.) Supposed to move into an apt on the 28th. Iit'll be so great to instead of having to get a hotel when I go to Delaware...I get to go home.... Home...A real home, something I haven't had in a long time. It's gonna be tough, I've been busting my ass trying to get ahead....it didn't occur to me that aside from initial move in costs....we have no furniture and, yeah I've looked at some discount furniture stores and that crap is so expensive.... I found one place that says on their website they offer 90 day cash financing, hopefully credit isn't an issue at this place. I'm surprised I'm typing this, I haven't wanted to because everything usually goes south...always unforseen obstacles or just total failure....so honestly, I wont be shocked if something doesn't work out. I don't want to get excited and then go thru more disappointment and let down. So, I'm not getting excited til we're IN the apt. I wish it was being done differently....I feel like an apt is almost like...not a real home, it's something you rent then move on...like a long term hotel...except this time it's not furnished....which I love/hate.... I'm looking forward to being able to decorate, I want nice things, I want it to look good and really feel like a home...all pretty and comfortable....get a nice big vanity to put my makeup on, big cushy bed, maybe some stuff to hang on the walls. I really gotta push this next week to be able to pull off enough furniture to be able to move in. Sofa, beds, TV, lamps, tables, have to get it all. BP going down didn't help, but luckily I have some regs that keep me on my feet....without you guys I wouldn't have anything...I don't know where I'd be right now...Off to Philly on Monday, then back to DE on the 27th.