Safety Issues
I was in KOP for 5 days...back was out the entire time except for the last 2 days so it was a bust. I had to move on due to a problem that I am not even apart of. (Go...harass....someone....else...leave....me....alone...) Look, I know you guys want whats in the pics but I don't think you realize the danger you put an honest girl like me in...because mine are real....so real that the second I step foot into certain hotels I'm pegged and asked to leave....I have been approached on the street while with my Mother by strangers exclaiming "Tessa?" Or even worse... "How much?" Seriously. I've had a couple guys walk up to me out of no where and say "I know you! I've seen your ad! How much?" I'm all like.. "Yeah, that's my twin sister's ad you saw...her and I are complete opposites" and walk away... lol You wont text or email me but you'll walk up to me and call me out? Something has to change....I walk around daily with my head down and wondering everytime someone looks at me "Do they recognize me?" I've been given the advice of "wear no makeup and don't dress up." That .... flipped me out. So, your saying to keep doing my job I have to give up the ONE THING and I literally mean the ONE thing in the world that makes me happy.........makeup. I know it sounds silly to you guys, I know a girl "doesn't need makeup" but I like it.. before I go to bed, at about 10pm....I wash my face, put on a face mask, wash it off....put on serum, moisturizer and treatments... look at my collection and find out what I'm missing, look at my face and decide what needs special attention and when I wake up I wash my face again, put on serum and an SPF then do my makeup, the entire process takes an hour or so morning/night .... during those 2-3 hours it makes me feel like I'm someone, fixing to go out and start her day...about to change the world in some way and throughout the day I get so bored I go onto sites and make lists of the top facial serums and moisturizers and makeup products in hopes that I can get them....I know I'll never get a $200 serum... but...it's my time and it makes me happy....I'll make a list of things I want....throw it out and do it again hours later with some variations and I have to give part of that up? My makeup routine? Why? Because I'm trying to survive? I'm not hurting ANYONE. I don't rob my guys, I don't mislead them, I certainly don't injure them and I damn sure don't leave my room a wreck, I actually leave it cleaner then most guests do....I don't even disturb my neighbors, anyone who has text me knows my cut off time is rather early...unless I'm low on money ...which...I am now.. it's midnight and I'm still answering texts...this past week killed me, it's all gone...I actually had to return birthday gifts for my mom to get a room tonight....4 days... I have four days to come up with enough to keep my head above water...and...I'm supposed to do it with no makeup on. LOL Yeah, right. Me? No makeup?!?!? Ah, no....don't think so. Hotels look at any girl and wonder.....if I had no makeup on they would just think I was a tired escort. I'm super tired, it's past my bed time...I'm normally in bed by 11 watching a movie til I fall asleep and dream of what could have been.
Til next time.....tomorrow will be a better day, it has to be a better day. Love you guys, you keep me going....but some of you just don't think! Ugh! Men are so annoying! lol
