Another Day In Paradise

From Newark to ML... all pre-booked hotels that I couldn't cancel. Day 5 of my inability to work....I can't even muster up the energy to go to the mall which is honestly why I came here in hopes of finding that special gift...let alone work. Alas, I'm bed-ridden with one of my discs out...just my luck. I'm hoping tomorrow will be different, much longer and I wont have anything left after shoveling out so much on hotels and not making anything back...I started feeling a little better about 2 hours ago but not completely, hopefully by morning I will be back on my feet cause this is God awful and I have so many plans for the Holiday it's gonna take a miracle to catch back up in time to be able to pull it off...could really use a wintery holiday angel to perch on my shoulder right about now. Everyone wonders why I'm not "well-off" well, this is why. I pay for hotels every single day and something always goes wrong...it's like God is giving me the ability to survive but not truly live....cause I swear everytime I get a good amount of money on the card and I start thinking "this is it...this is the month I'll be able to do more" something goes wrong and I can't work for a week and then BAM! Back to square one. I miss you guys too. :-( Super bored, laying in bed all day with no one to talk to and just scouring the internet for good movies. I'll be better tomorrow. I have to be.